The 40th Day (After the Cure Book 5) Read online

  Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Dedication

  One

  Two

  Three

  Four

  Five

  Six

  Seven

  Eight

  Nine

  Ten

  Eleven

  Twelve

  Thirteen

  Fourteen

  Fifteen

  Sixteen

  Seventeen

  Eighteen

  Nineteen

  Twenty

  Twenty-one

  Twenty-two

  Twenty-three

  Twenty-four

  Twenty-five

  Twenty-six

  Twenty-seven

  Twenty-eight

  Twenty-nine

  Thirty

  Thirty-one

  Thirty-two

  Thirty-three

  Thirty-four

  Thirty-five

  Thirty-six

  Thirty-seven

  Thirty-eight

  Thirty-nine

  Forty

  Forty-one

  Note to the Reader

  Other Books

  The 40th Day

  Deirdre Gould

  The 40th Day

  Copyright 2016 Deirdre Gould

  All rights are reserved to the author. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles or reviews.

  This is a work of fiction. Names, character, places and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events or locales is entirely coincidental.

  For Rickey and Melissa E.: Thank you for letting me shamelessly use you to rebuild the world

  And for all of the readers who loved all of these characters as much as I did. These books wouldn’t exist without your support.

  One

  Christine slowly realized she’d long ago lost all sense of where they were. They walked through another grimy, damp intersection that looked the same as all the previous ones. Marnie held the map in front of her, glancing up only long enough to note the next section of tunnel. Christine’s legs were tired and she could feel the muscles wobbling on the edge of a series of cramps. Stress and the pregnancy sucked away her energy. Marnie paused to mark where they’d been again, streaking a red pen across the filthy map. Christine bent down to rub her calf muscle, trying to coax it into relaxing. She’d have to see if she could find some source of potassium when they got to the surface. Maybe that was why she’d suddenly had such strong cravings for meat. It was something she hadn’t really missed in years. Except for eggs from the handful of chickens she and Sevita had kept, meat wasn’t available. But she’d been dreaming about hamburger all week. Rare hamburger. The kind that mushed and bled in the middle. Christine stood up. No good thinking about what doesn’t exist anymore, she told herself. Get yourself and Marnie out of these filthy tunnels and into fresh air and there’s a protein bar in the pack for you.

  Marnie turned back toward her. “It’s not so much farther. We’re getting near the power plant tunnels, there should be an exit in a few blocks, we can peek out and see if it’s safe on the street.”

  Christine nodded and followed after her down the long tunnel. It stretched on and on. The thicker dark and the quick chilly breath of openings at her side never failed to make Christine nervous, expecting some dark creature, something oozing infection and skeletal to come shambling out of an intersecting tunnel to grab her or Marnie. The girl seemed unconcerned though, jumping only at the infrequent pop of gunfire or thud of something moving on the street above them. The dark, the seeping rotten leaf smell of stagnant water, the rustle of rodents didn’t make her hesitate at all. Christine wondered about her life Before. It wasn’t the first time since meeting Marnie that she’d thought about it. But she didn’t ask. Nobody asked in the City. A person was how they acted after arriving. It was too dangerous to be nosy about what had happened, what they’d done before walking through the massive entry gate. It was never a happy story. Christine tripped and went down onto the muddy floor, her arms stretched in front of her to protect her from slamming her belly into the cement.

  “Whoa,” said Marnie, reaching to help her up, “Are you okay?”

  Christine wiped her arms on the front of her pants, trying to clean the slimy grit from her skinned elbows and scraped forearms. “I’m fine,” she said, “Just clumsy.”

  Marnie swung the flashlight around. “What’d you trip on?”

  “I don’t know. It didn’t really felt like I bumped into anything, more like I got tangled up in my feet. Must just be tired. I’ll pay more attention to what I’m doing.”

  Marnie helped her get up and retrieved Christine’s flashlight. “Do we need to do anything for the baby? Did that hurt it?”

  “The baby is okay. It wasn’t a bad fall and it’s still very early.”

  Christine finished brushing herself off and hitched her pack a little higher as she started down the long tunnel again.

  “Why did you— wouldn’t it have been easier to adopt?” Marnie asked, and then quickly added, “I know that’s too personal, you don’t have to answer that.”

  “We wanted to make sure that if the plague came back someday, maybe centuries later, there’d be humans with immunity. So Sevita and I agreed to the pregnancy, so our baby would have two Immune parents. We didn’t know a different strain was out there until after. It wasn’t so hard, the City arranged it all, I just had to go to the hospital one day for an hour and it was done.”

  “I didn’t mean how you did it. I meant— I don’t know what I meant. Maybe that babies shouldn’t be born anymore. Maybe that having a baby is dangerous. For you and the baby. There’s not enough medicine, not enough food. Never enough of anything. Except people hurting each other. Maybe we aren’t supposed to make more of us.”

  Christine frowned. “That’s pretty cynical for someone so young. Yeah, I guess things weren’t great. Especially outside. I’m sorry for what you’ve been through. For what we’ve all been through. But the City has been secure for a few years now. We didn’t have excess, sure, but everyone had enough. Some things are scarce, like medicine and some foods, but that isn’t going to change for a while. Should we just let ourselves run down to extinction because of some lean times? Why go on at all?”

  “But you don’t even know if your baby is immune. Maybe it’s infected right now. Maybe it’s going to kill—”

  Christine turned to face the teenager behind her. Marnie stopped talking. “Sorry,” she mumbled.

  “It’s not infected,” said Christine. “Not yet anyway. It won’t be in danger of infection until delivery. That’s how the bacteria works. By then we’ll be far enough away that we’ll never have to worry about infection.”

  Marnie nodded.

  “Look,” Christine continued, “I know this is scary, especially at your age. But women have been doing this for millions of years. Through plagues and wars and starvation. Is it right? I don’t know. Would it have been better if the baby were an accident instead of planned? Maybe it’s selfish. Maybe it’s not fair. But the world needs babies. It needs hope or what’s left will fade away. I need this baby. It can’t bring Sevita back, I know that. It can’t undo what’s been done. But the baby’s world won’t be what happened eight years ago or a hundred years ago. Its world will be what happens once it opens its eyes. And those days are still ahead. I have to believe those days are beautiful and loving and worthwhile. Without this baby, t
hose days are just an empty span of waiting to die, immune or not.” She stopped for a moment. “I’m sorry for whatever you’ve been through Marnie,” she said, “and I wouldn’t blame you if there were days where you wished your parents hadn’t made the decision to have you, that it’s all more grief than it’s worth. But it wasn’t always this way, and someday it will get better, for you too. There are good reasons that we keep holding on, even when it seems pointless. One day, you’re going to wake up and the sun’s going to seem warmer and the food’s going to seem better and you’ll find your purpose again. We all will. Maybe it’s in someone you haven’t met yet. Maybe it’s in doing some real good in the world. You’ll find it. So will this baby. As difficult as it is to believe, someday, this will all be worth it—” She stumbled again as something launched into her from a side passage. She hit the side wall of the main tunnel with a thud. Marnie yelled and jumped after her.

  Christine slid down the wall as she struggled to keep the man on top of her from biting. She pushed his jaw up and away and flinched as his hands flailed and scrabbled across her. He was growling but it turned into a deep gurgle as saliva pooled and dribbled from his jaw. She could tell he was smelling her and it only made him hungrier. Marnie yanked on his shoulders trying to pull him off, but the man just shrugged her off.

  “Marnie, no! Stay back!” Christine yelled. She tried to wriggle out from beneath him, the grit from the floor grinding and smearing into her back. She tried to kick, but he straddled her legs and sat down. His hands seemed to remember their purpose and began closing around her neck. Marnie swung her large pack, aiming for the man’s head. It hit his shoulder and he rocked back for a second. He reached up and yanked the pack from Marnie’s arms and threw it behind him while Christine twisted and broke partially free. He shrieked, upset at the near escape of his prey. He clamped down on Christine’s arm with one hand and turned his face, slavering, back to her. Christine panted, pushing his face as far upward as she could.

  “Help! Somebody help,” Marnie yelled, not knowing who she meant to call out to. “What do I do?” she asked, hovering over the man’s back. Christine didn’t answer, her face flushing red in the bright halo of her dropped flashlight. She just grunted and strained as the man above her snarled and twisted, trying to get closer. Marnie glanced around. There’d been no weapons in the bunker, not even a kitchen knife. A pair of scissors had been all, Marnie had looked, missing the hunting knives that had been confiscated at the City gate. She’d left the scissors behind. She’d thought the other people would need them more. And now she had nothing. She glanced down at Christine. There was more bend in the other woman’s arm, and her chest heaved with exhausted, whooping breaths. The man was going to kill her in only a minute or two.

  I should run, Marnie thought, the idea growing from her very bone. Christine groaned. She glanced up at Marnie, and the girl could see that Christine knew she was about to give up.

  “Run,” she wheezed, echoing Marnie’s own instinct.

  Marnie shook her head, unsure whether she was denying Christine’s command or her own. She groped for her pack in the side tunnel and pulled it out by a strap. She could hear Christine gagging as the man’s grip tightened around her neck. Marnie leaped onto his back. Christine let go of his face, tearing at his hands as she choked. The man lunged forward, mouth stretched wide in a roar. Marnie dropped the pack’s canvas strap over his head and pulled back. The strap pulled against the man’s throat and Marnie yanked backward, using her body weight to force him up and away from Christine’s skin. He released Christine’s neck, trying to pull the strap away. Marnie spun the pack until the strap closed behind his head in a completed loop. She twisted it farther as the man stumbled off of Christine and flailed, trying to reach the pack behind his head. Christine scuttled away, still wheezing, while Marnie clung on. The pack swung and rocked as he struggled to stand and Marnie was lifted off her feet, but she didn’t let go. For a few seconds, he tottered and then bashed into the tunnel wall. Marnie yelped as her shoulder hit and bruised. The man slowly collapsed to his knees, clutching at the strap that cut into the skin of his neck.

  “Stop,” panted Christine. “Stop Marnie, that’s enough.”

  “What?” asked Marnie, staring at her.

  “You’ll kill him. Stop.”

  Marnie didn’t let go. The man slumped forward more, his shoulders touching the floor as he gasped for a tiny breath. “He’s going to kill us. I can’t stop.”

  “He’s just sick, Marnie. You have to let go. He’s a human being.”

  “What do you propose we do with him? If I let go, he’ll be up in a matter of seconds chasing us again. Even if we lose him somehow, he’ll just wander around until he finds someone else to hurt,” she grunted. The man’s gasping stopped. It would only be seconds now until brain death.

  Christine was crawling toward her. “Let go, Marnie, we’ll tie him up. I’m sure he’s got a family in the City. They’ll care for him until the Cure—”

  Marnie shook her head and tightened her grip. “There’s no Cure, Christine. You said so yourself. If we tie him up, we just leave him to a worse death by slowly starving.”

  Christine bent forward to look at the unconscious man’s face. “I know him,” she said, “He’s an electric plant worker. He came in for chemical burns last year. I treated him. He’s just sick, he’s not evil, Marnie. I know him.”

  “Not anymore. He’s not who you think. He doesn’t know you. He tried to kill you. He’d keep trying. They all try. Don’t you remember what they are like?”

  The man was dead now. Marnie was sure. She slowly untwisted the pack and slid the strap out from underneath him. His head dropped the rest of the way to the cement with a thunk. Christine slid a dirty hand over her eyes. “You didn’t have to do that. He was a human being. You can’t just kill people, there’s always another way.”

  Marnie adjusted the pack on her back so that it sat flatter. “Yeah, he was a human being. He wouldn’t have wanted to live that way. I wouldn’t have wanted to live that way. Another way wouldn’t have been kind. You think your wife enjoys eating innocent people alive?”

  Christine stared up at her. “Sevita isn’t eating people.”

  “Wake up!” shouted Marnie, her voice ringing like cold metal from the tunnel walls, “If she’s still living, then she’s eating people. If she’s not, then someone else showed her the same kindness I showed this guy. You can’t go on thinking we can just knock em out and leave them or— or lead them home on a leash to their family. They aren’t the people that they were!” she kicked the man in the side. “He’s not Henry anymore, so get up and dust yourself off. There’s going to be more and we have to save ourselves.”

  “Henry?” asked Christine, confused.

  Marnie ignored her, picking up the flashlight and shoving it into Christine’s hand before wiping off the dampened map and heading off down the tunnel.

  Two

  He wasn’t a brave man, he could admit that to himself, though the others insisted he was. Reckless, desperate not to recover from a second madness as he had the first, yes. That’s why he had volunteered. It meant he’d never have to come back. The others would make sure of that. He wouldn’t be left to recover in some strange house with no explanation except his nightmarish memories ever again. But it wasn’t free, that assurance. What he’d have to do in the coming weeks… Vincent paced the long, grassy lane between the wire cages of the quarantine camp. Moonlight outlined each small square in the wire mesh and made the small tent where Father Preston slept glow in the dark field. The two men in the wire cages lay still under their tiny squares of tarp. Vincent softened his footsteps as he neared them. How could they sleep? He couldn’t. He hadn’t been able to quiet his mind enough even to say a proper prayer in weeks. Not since the barn meeting. Not since he’d realized what must be done. He hadn’t been able to sleep either, not really. Instead, he’d drop from exhaustion every other day for a scant few hours and wake unrefreshed and
more strained than ever.

  The mumbled panic-stricken pleas that took the place of his normally thoughtful, peaceful devotions made him ashamed, but it didn’t make his fear subside. He’d hidden it well from the others. He still hid it from the slowly sickening pair of refugees that he was caring for. But alone, when all of his work was done, the terror choked him and he resorted to begging, to bargaining, to everything he knew wasn’t really prayer.

  You know I’m not afraid to face You, he’d begin, his feet wearing away the long, smooth grass as he traveled the length of the camp over and over again. I know there is no hiding from You. What I’ve been, what I’ve done. And I know Henry was right. There isn’t anything we can do to lessen the harm we’ve caused, no matter how long we live. Vincent wrung his hands and paused halfway up the lane. I’m not afraid to die. I’m afraid of what has to be done next. Is this murder or is it self-defense? I’m afraid of what I’m going to become. I need help. Help me. He went back to pacing, trying to erase the feeling of cowardice and shame his thoughts produced.

  The bell hanging in the silo clanged and echoed over the farm and down into the quarantine camp. Vincent turned to look down the road. A cluster of flashlights bobbed and wavered. Help me, he pleaded again, and headed down the dirt path as the light in Father Preston’s tent brightened and shadows began to move inside. He could see it was a large group from the number of lights. For a moment, he thought about switching on the small radio he carried to call for help. He couldn’t expose anyone else. If they were looters or worse— well, he guessed that he wouldn’t have to worry about what would happen in a few weeks.

  The lights drew closer and Vincent could hear the dragging shuffle of several tired feet. “Hello,” he called, still several yards from them. He didn’t want to startle them. The shuffling stopped abruptly and Vincent found himself soaked in the bright glow of overlapping flashlight beams. He tried to force a smile. He was glad he couldn’t see them, these people he was meant to kill. “Where are you coming from?” he kept his voice casual, as if crowds normally walked the road in the middle of the night.